Since the past two units was me trying out several different tools/methods and not really diving deep into one of them I looked at all of the things I was briefly interested in and quickly abandoned. There was Videos/Video editing, Animation, 3D, Illustration/Drawing, Photography, Curating, Sound and Website design. At first I thought it would make sense to get into 3D because it is to some extent illustration but is still very new to me. The brief says I should engage with something new, something that will project my work into new territory. In my case I feel like it makes the most sense to get back into illustration and utilise it in a way I haven’t really done before. I feel like I’ve ventured into all these different tools and methods to avoid having to get into illustration. To find something else. But nothing quite worked for me. I feel very anxious when I think about having to illustrate something. My brain just shuts off and there is a void with no ideas coming to mind. At the same time I feel like it is/was the tool I could express myself with like I couldn’t with any other tool and I really want to gain back that ability to give my thoughts an outlet otherwise it will all just stay in my head and will never come out.
So, for the first two weeks I decided to go with the first brief: TOOL
My goal is it to just be able to even get a pen on a paper and just embrace facing the unknown in something that I used to enjoy. To get back to drawing I thought about setting myself a constraint of 3min per drawing. Black ink on white paper. The images were inspired by imagery I saw online and just changed details about them or put them in a different context. I needed some external visual inspiration since my perfectionism would stop me from coming up with any visual idea whatsoever. It still feels/felt like a lot of pressure to get myself to draw something. But I hope I can losen up through that process. Here are some of the drawings I did:
